When I look back on the past few New Years, I realize that I have made pointless resolutions that I never seem to actually go through with. I also see that as the years have gone by, things have gotten tougher with each moment. I also see my mistakes I have made in my walk with Christ. So this year, I am making a very meaningful resolution to better myself, and my walk with God.
2011 has been one of the most challenging years mentally, physically, emotionally and especially spiritually. My problem being the fact that I don’t give my mental, physical and emotional obstacles to God. I simply let them build, and I shut God out, completely. It’s gotten to the point where sometimes I don’t even know where I stand with Him anymore. I am losing myself to the fact that I won’t turn to Him in my times of need. I won’t praise Him for the graces He has given me in the storms I face. I become a bitter version of myself, a past version of myself that I honestly do not want to be. I have dug myself a hole, which I find myself hiding in, away from God and I have no idea why. I am broken, scarred, shattered. I know that I need Him.
So right now, I am rededicating myself, and trying to light the fire that I once had. My New Year’s Resolution is to be a woman of Faith, to be a Woman of God, and to not give up when obstacles come my way. I want to be a prayer warrior. I want to be on fire for God again. I want to be the best that I can be for God. I want to become a better missionary, a better worshiper, a better praiser, and a better daughter to Him. I want to be all that I can be in His name. From now on I want to turn to Him, to give him all my problems, but most of all to oversee my problems and praise him for what He has given me, and to use the things He gives me to spread His word.